Bubble dreams and broken hearted

"You popped the heart seams on my bubble dreams"

We have all been there, fallen for the wrong person, the one you know you shouldn’t have. Spent months hoping you would change him, that he would realise how much he loves you, that he would just be who he originally said he would try to be. Then, there comes the day you realise, that isn’t going to happen. It could happen many ways, something he says, a lie he told you to cover his tracks, a text you weren’t meant to read, a conversation you weren’t meant to overhear or more. Your head rushes, why were you so easy as to be lead on, used that way? Why didn’t you get out of it when you had the strength before letting yourself get so hurt? Why are you still finding it hard to let go?

That’s it, it’s happened. There is a new girl in the mix, and you have been replaced with a new interest, you’re out of the situation. Your heart is now crushed, your head spinning with questions like “What did I do?” or “How can I fix this?”. Thing Is, you didn’t do anything. You were there for him when he needed it and vice versa, you know you love him truly and you have never denied this fact. Thing is, he doesn’t love you. Every time he has said it, it is out of habit, not true word and you need to accept it. Why did you hold onto the idea of you and him when you know it would never happen without a miracle?

Thing is, you are so angry but you know you can’t say anything. You weren’t supposed to stumble across that conversation, overhear it, read something, and see the truth behind a comment. Thing is you will feel so sick to the stomach that you let it happen. You believed those little lies, and that knight in shining armour you thought he was, has now been replaced with a lying weasel.

Now you are faced with a big decision. Face him, making him angry, you upset and ruining your friendship, or keep quiet, keep the peace until you get out. Personally I’d choose the second option, keeping quiet until I get out, but being careful to hide your emotions. Every time he says he loves you, don’t let it cut you. Don’t picture you and him happy, remember where your head is and run. Remember, you may be saying something great, but in your eyes you can see the truth.

I always believe that when one door closes, another opens. The gods take pity on those of the broken hearted and give them an exit from something awful, and open an entrance to something new. Giving you feelings you never thought still existed. The biggest thing? You can trust again in this new place, you can feel confident enough to step over the threshold and feel the warmth on your face. Don’t ever forget that. As hurt and heartbroken as you feel now? It’ll disappear with time.

Trust is a very precious thing, lies and deceit break this. If you are the one that broke it? You deserve to lose that person, just remember it was you that did it. Honesty is the best policy, and clearly it is not a policy of yours.

Chann